I Believe!

God’s Plan…

Even though we cannot see his nail scared hands,

We know Jesus the son of God was sent for us to understand,

Love is not just a word it is a way of life to us all,

When God speaks we should hear his call,

Don’t keep silent if one turns away,

Drop down on your knees and pray,

To save a soul is an honor in his name,

We should be proud as we proclaim,

It is in his name his will be done,

Because God sent his only son,

To save our souls in this life we live,

It is our sins that he does forgive,

If one person hears of his name today,

Another will rejoice as we say,

Thank you God for saving me,

The Alfa, The Omega, The Almighty!

(Dee Stevens 2/18/2011)

I believe that everything happens for a reason so let me start by saying on Tuesday I happened upon and app for my phone which takes your pulse rate. I felt compelled to download it to my phone. I don’t know why I just didn’t question it and did it and didn’t think about it again.

It was a week ago late tonight the following events happened which opened my eyes to how God tell us to do things we don’t understand but he always has his reasons. We may not see them as a sign from God at that moment but later find out the ‘gut feeling’ we get was his way of preparing us for things to come.

*Some of the following events may not be in the exact order as they happened because I wasn’t taking notes at the time…

I got a text from the man I love “I’m sick come take care of me”. Normally I would not think anything of it but he is not the typical guy to ask for any sort of help. I text back and let him know I had a few more things to do and I would be over.

Once I got there I found him on the couch shaking wrapped up in a blanket. His hands and feet were ice cold and he told me he had thrown up a few times since 3 that afternoon.

I asked him if he wanted me to take him to the hospital and his reply was “no I don’t have insurance and I really don’t feel like sitting in the emergency room for hours”. I could totally relate to his replies because I too don’t have insurance and wouldn’t want to sit and wait for hours to find out what’s wrong but a little small voice inside told me “take his pulse with the app on your phone”. I’m not saying that I have a direct connection with God or that he spoke directly to me but when I have things like this happen to me I don’t toss them off or ignore them.

I did and it was reading 199 which to me was not a good thing. He asked me to look up online and see what some of his symptoms might be. As I was got my computer out and started searching in the back of my mind I kept hearing that same small voice saying ‘something isn’t right and he needs to go to the hospital’. I would ask him question to compare them to MD online. As I did I just keep feeling I needed to check his blood pressure.  I’m not a nurse or a doctor but have worked in a nursing home and had a medical clinic and knew that his mother had a wrist cup there at the house. I got it and took his blood pressure to find it was 200 plus over 100 plus (I didn’t write it down but knew it was way too high) He told me it must be a mistake to check the batteries so I changed them out and took it again. It was still over 200 and 100. I went back online to find that anything that high like that meant you needed medical attention as soon as possible. I kept talking to him and watching him breath and then he told me he needed something he was going to get sick. I flew to the kitchen to find something fast and got it to him just in time. He didn’t want me near him when he was getting sick but I wanted to make sure he was ok.

After this happened he felt a little better but the high readings were a nagging concern to me when I had read about having a blood pressure reading as high as his was to seek immediate medical attention. (Click here for the page I viewed)

I took the blood pressure again and it was still well over 200 and 100 plus. I wanted to make sure the cup was working so I had someone take mine. Of course mine was a little high because of the situation but I then knew I had to convince him to go to the hospital.

I took my phone in the other room and called the hospital and asked to speak to the on duty nurse and explained the situation. I was told to hang up and call 911 she added that he could stroke out or could be having a stroke.

I knew I had to remain calm and let him and the others in the house of what I was getting ready to do. After letting everyone know what I was going to do I dialed 911. While on the phone with I remained calm as I watched the love of my life pass out. Even though it was only for a few moments it still scared me. I knew the worse things I could do was panic so I calmly kept saying his name until he his eyes opened up and he spoke to me.

While waiting for the paramedics to get there, which seemed like forever, I kept it together and continue to get him ready for them along with talking to his mom and staying by his side until they got there.

He was alert and requested his mom call his son and let him know we would be heading to the hospital. His son got to the hospital first, followed by me and then we waited for him to arrive.

Again the time seemed to drag on as we waited to be able to see him. During our time waiting and at one point not knowing where he was in the emergency room I struggled with thoughts of losing him.

We were told that only one of us could go back at a time until he was put into a room. Of course I told his son he would be going back first. I thanked God for letting me be there to make the call!

As I was sitting in the waiting room I got updates from his son via text I then I got a text that read “you are probably the reason I’m alive”. Tears filled my eyes as I wrote back “No God is just not ready for you yet”. It was then I broke down and had to go outside to cry! I can look back on it now and know in my heart everything that has happen in my life God had prepared me for to deal with that situation. That moment in my life was preplanned by God.

I’ve told the man I love so many times “God has me back here in your life for a reason” and I feel in my heart God has been putting different events in my life to get me back here to North Carolina for a reason. It’s not just because of everything I have described to you but many other events too.

Like many others, my thoughts of losing the man I love with all my heart were very overwhelming. And I’m sure he would tell you I’ve told him I love him more than I usually do, but I just feel so grateful that God has let him live another day for me to tell him how much I do love him.

Over the past week I’ve gone through some really up and down emotions. From helplessness to crying and moments of pure love! This was not only an eye opening experience to the man I love with all my heart, it has had an effect on all the people in our lives! From the people in both or our immediate circles to others too!

There’s an old saying “you find out who your friends are” when times get rough… it has opened our eyes to other things too. I can only speak for myself right now, and I have to say I have been moved to really see things differently.

Being a Christian woman, I know you can’t hold it against people when they don’t come and visit you in the hospital when things like this happen. You have to not judge them for their actions. It tells us in the Bible: Luke 6:37 (New International Version, ©2010) -“Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.

Our lives are like pieces to a puzzle, each one fits in some way to make a perfect picture! When you think about life and the events which are happening in yours, you should always try and see the bigger picture. God doesn’t make mistakes! It says in the Bible he knows every hair on your head, just like he knows when and where you should be at any given moment. It’s up to us to open our eyes and ears to see and hear what he is trying to say to you!

If you ever feel like your life just isn’t going the way you want it to go, maybe you should remember we are about his business-not ours! Once you open yourself up to the fact he is the reason we are here and try to see the bigger picture it is then and only then that life will seem to take a magical turn and everything will start falling into place.

Always put God first in your life! When you do this your life will take a turn you could never imagine! There are those who say “If there is a God why do so many bad things happen in my life?” I say to you “God has his reasons and we just have to have faith one day we will know the answers!” Until the day we do, we have to trust he sent his son Jesus to forgive us for our sins so our souls would be saved!

Please take time today to share my story with just one person who you think needs to know they aren’t alone in this life.

Life happens!

It’s up to us to see and smell the roses!

It’s our jobs as Christians to be his fishers of men!

Be Blessed!

Dee Stevens

It was not a coincidence that you viewed this today… it was part of God’s plan!