Some days are better than others...Being strong.

Today has been one of those days which has been harder than others for me.
I can't begin to explain the feelings of being alone have been more than I can bare today... Or at least I thought so until I reached out to a few friends.
I thank God for putting people in my life who don't judge me and have blessed me with a peace around my heart. I'm still taking it moment by moment right now.
I gave my heart to another who spoke of the future and what we where going to as we grow old together. Instead I learned it was all a lie and now I find myself trying to focus on me.
I've lived my whole life putting others first.. My kids, my husbands (Yes I had two) friends and even strangers!
I know God has a lesson in all of this and I'm trying to keep my eyes open to what he has in store for me. I do believe he won't give me more than I can handle. My faith thru this all has not wavered... I am human and the pain seems to be overwhelming at times.
I met one of the women who had been hurt and lied to also. She made me make her a promise to not stab her in the back and to be there for her. I have reached out to her but with no response in return. I will keep my promise to her and I know she will be reading this post. My prayer for you is the same for myself... That God put a good Christian man in my life to spend the rest of my life with. One who isn't selfish, one who is honest thru and thru, one he has chosen just for me!
Over the years when I have had low points I find writing is the best therapy there is for me. I'm able to get it out of my mind and on paper or in this case on a blog to share with others. I pray my words can help at least one person know they are not alone. I'm not alone! God is with us all the time! Just like the poem "Foot Prints In The Sand"

Below are different versions of the poem I'd like to share with you:

From Mary Stevenson, 1936:

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.

This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord,

"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?"

The Lord replied, "The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you."

From Carolyn Carty, 1963:

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed He was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from His life. For each scene He noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonging to Him and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of His life flashed before Him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of His life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of His life.

This really bothered Him and He questioned the LORD about it. LORD you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.

The LORD replied, my precious, precious child, I Love you and I would never leave you! During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.

From Margaret Fishback Powers, 1964:

One night I dreamed a dream. I was walking along the beach with my Lord. Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to me and one to my Lord.

When the last scene of my life shot before me I looked back at the footprints in the sand. There was only one set of footprints. I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life. This always bothered me and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.

"Lord, You told me when I decided to follow You, You would walk and talk with me all the way. But I'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints. I just don't understand why, when I need You most, You leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never, ever, during your trials and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you."

As you can see this poem has been around for a very long time and it was even made into a song too!

The wonderful thing I have found while writing this - My spirits have been lifted! I know it's thru prayer... God is carrying me right now! Will you let him carry you and lay it at his feet too?
Please continue to pray for me as I give it to God and let him lead me in this journey I'm on right now.

I hope my words have touched your heart in someway today and continue to pray for all affected by this situation.

Have a Blessed Day!
Dee Stevens